December 8, 2016

With Grace | Volume I

When I started to think about what I wanted in my "new" blog, I knew that I wanted to write about the life that I am living. I wanted to have a space to share the ups and downs, ins and outs, and highs and lows so that I could remember to look back on each hill and valley and see the lessons that I learned. I can't quite explain what having this space back means to me. It's so nice knowing that I have somewhere I can come and chat with friends (or myself) and just talk it out.

My hope is that every week or every month or heck every other month, I can come and just talk about living with grace in this crazy little world. Whether it be sharing what I'm thankful for, how I've tried to live with grace recently, or how I am blessed with grace and love, I just want to share it here. So without further waiting, I present to you Volume I of With Grace.
This week, I had a moment where I had to take a step back and was reminded of how blessed I was by the childhood that I had. My parents were the type of parents who never missed a game, swim meet, gymnastics meet. No matter how big or how small the game was, I knew that when I looked over, either one of my parents would be in the stands or sometimes coaching me from the sidelines. It makes me sad to see sweet kiddos who don't have that support. It was definitely something that I took advantage of and and didn't appreciate until I got older. My hope is that I can provide my sweet baby girl with those types of moments and a feeling of knowing her parents are there to support and cheer her on always.

Sometimes, with grace, is the only way to make it through a situation that seems just down right crappy. I have come to the realization, after many talks with family, friends, and my mother in law, that when I have an issue with someone, it is ultimately my issue. It may come from wanting to change them, not understanding why they see something differently than I do, or ultimately not agreeing with how they handle things. But what it boils down to is that what they are doing or have done doesn't bother them or make them sleep less at night, it is how I react that affects myself only. This has been a hard pill to swallow as I tend to hold people to a high regard in their actions but am slowly learning that it's my own pride and sometimes insecurities that makes me hold on to that frustration longer than I should.

This pregnancy has truly shown me what grace is all about. I have, without a doubt, loved this whole process. Every day, my body is performing this amazing feat of growing, providing for, and protecting this sweet baby. From the moment I wake up and feel her kicks, to the minute I lay down to enjoy some rest, I am amazed by the fact that I have been chosen to carry this sweet baby girl. I know that there are many trials and triumphs that will come along here very soon but oh how it will be worth it to do it all for my baby girl.

I hope you all have had an amazing week so far. I am so thankful to you for stopping in and following along with my randomness. It's amazing what this blog world has to offer and the people that it has brought into my life. I'm glad you are one of them. Happy Friday eve friends.